<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<------>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> POETRY . . . -=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=******-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-- :-):-()-:(-: REFLECTIONS OF ASH ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~ Copyright 1994 Roberta Albinda  <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<------>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> . . . -=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=******-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-- :-):-()-:(-: Misunderstanding -- by Roberta Albinda Misunderstandings Come from nothing at all It happens when hearing Overtakes listening Innocent words Can cut so deep When people are looking For something to hurt them Even silences Can be mistaken For reams of emotions That just don't exist Stopping to understand The message behind Can lead you back On the right track. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Alone -- by Roberta Albinda No light Black night How will I survive? Creak, Groan Every moan I hear so many sounds Oh my, 'Tis only I; I can be such a fool What things Imagination brings When you're all alone. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Shack -- by Roberta Albinda | Fire -- by Roberta Albinda | Look at that old shack. | One kiss, one dream Its walls are sinking in. | One moment, it seems See! Its foundation has crumbled. | Two souls lost and found Hear how it sighs as you enter. | Two hearts that pound Look! It is empty, | What's pure, What's Chaste, Nothing but dust and cobwebs inside.| In Light, in grace, Tell me what is the use of this shack? | Setting fire to the spark, When it has nothing left to give? | Blending into the dark. How long can it survive? | One body, two hearts Look back as you walk away. | No endings, no starts, See how it stands all forlorn, | Melded fast with the heat Waiting to be useful again. | In a bond pure and sweet. | ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- Fire -- by Roberta Albinda | | One kiss, one dream | One moment, it seems | Two souls lost and found | Two hearts that pound | | What's pure, What's Chaste, | In Light, in grace, | Setting fire to the spark, | Blending into the dark. | | One body, two hearts | No endings, no starts, | Melded fast with the heat | In a bond pure and sweet. | ------------------------------------------------------------------- The Jailor -- by Roberta Albinda | | Rainstorm -- by Roberta Albinda | Captured | Entwined like brambles, Within my heart | No beginning or end. I keep | Which is which you fast | Is lost in the moment. | Trapped | Where two are one Within my soul | The earth sings I hear | Spiraling upward you begging | The song meets the sky. | Caged | Melding together Within my mind | Making the thunder I see | Sending all crashing Your perfection | Back to reality | Freed | And then the gentle rain . . . . From my life | I have | Only memories | ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Rage -- by Roberta Albinda Don't listen to the screams; Just pretend it's all a dream. See her sad eyes gazing out. Feel the silent outrage shout. You can't know what went wrong. It feels like a forgotten song. Don't let them see you cry, As you say your last goodbye. A cold and bitter gain, A legacy of pain, A solemn gift of tears, To last a million years. You'll never know what it was, Left in the dust, That seemed to them just cause. The ashes of your trust. The day was tragically fair, Left to fill your years, As they took her away without care. A solemn gift of tears. ----------------------------------------------------------------- Talk -- by Roberta Albinda Talk We never talk Talk isn't important? How can you define talk When we never talk? Listen I would love to listen I listen everyday? That's silly; how can i listen When there's nothing to listen to? See Is it so frightful to see me? The sight of a person is unimportant you say? If that were true then seeing would be easy But something is keeping you from sight You talk You listen You see But not to me But not me . . . Why? --------------------------------------- Take -- by Roberta Albinda Take my heart. It was yours as the moment connected us I cannot say how much this affected us So, take my heart. Take my soul It was lost until you found it And your love came to surround it So, take my soul. Take my mind My memories only dwell upon you I cannot think of just how I won you So, take my mind. Take every part of me. For I cannot bear to live without you And in return give me everything about you. Take every part of me .....And give me you.... ---------------------------------------------- It Would Have Been Nice -- by Roberta Albinda It would have been nice to have known you You look like you could be familiar I feel like the years could be passed through And I could be where you are. I could catch all your tears I would collect them all in a bowl of care In a box I would hide all your fears And with a strong bond of love keep them there. Your eyes are so brown and so anguished. What tragedies have you faced alone? Was it that everything you wished, Turned out to be worthless as stone? It would have been nice to have known you. And help you as I knew how. But I never did a fact so true But let me know you now. ------------------------------------------ Sometimes -- by Roberta Albinda Sometimes it happens, Unforetold possibilities Happen in dubious situations Leaving hapless individuals Blinking owl-like incomprehensively Locked within the secrets Kept by unassuming people Lay unrepentant reasons And unforgiving lies Perchance one steps upon it, Setting off a trap Leaving a heart bleeding Imprisoned in its jaws Sometimes it happens Limitless denials Wrapped in sugar-coating Hiding the bitter pill. --------------------------- Soul Song -- by Roberta Albinda When my thoughts pause on you Poetry and music fill me If only you knew How deep my feelings could be I sometimes wonder What it would be like If the thoughts I ponder Came true tonight If there ever was a person Who could see into my soul I could never name a reason Of why you astound me so So if I gaze into your eyes Just a tad too long Let it come to no surprise I'm merely capture by your song. -------------------------------- What In The World -- by Roberta Albinda What in the world are you standing there for? Pretending you can't find the way to the door? Are you going to wait for the fall? Or leave while the writing is still on the wall? Attempts to improve Are misconstrued When you try to enlighten They only get frightened Living in a hole built for one Making believe that you're having fun. What in the world are you standing there for? There's nothing left for you here anymore! There's nothing left to be done! You've run the race and the rats won. What in the world do you think that they'll do? When you figure out that the joke was on you? Do you think they'll beg you to stay Or let you leave with nothing to say? So, what in the world are you standing there for? Pretending you cant find the way to the door? Are you going to wait for the fall? Or leave while the writing is still on the wall? Why live in the past? this love is gone, so find one that lasts.... --------------------------------------------------- Tears -- by Roberta Albinda Tears fall from your eyes I trace the tracks they leave And watch as diamond drops Fall into my outstretched hand. I seem to have collected Enough to make a necklace That would shimmer like a rainbow In a rainy sky. Your tears have left a path of sorrow Across your shining face As I follow the trails I can see. More diamonds clutched by painful memories. To their relief I collect their booty. But I notice the vessel I am carrying Is getting quite full now I'll need something more to help you. My container is getting quite heavy I feel the weight bearing down on me To my surprise I find Your tears are mixing with mine. I am overcome by my burden And so I set it down And drawing out a fine thread I drop the glistening beads upon it. To my satisfaction the length was enough To hold each and every tear. But as I look at it I am perplexed This necklace can span the earth. Suddenly a thought occurs to me. As I look upon the glittering string. I take one end and join it to your heart And fasten the other end to mine. I no longer have to collect the tears For the thread grows to hold them It's spun from my love, friendship, and devotion A strong triple braid that will not break. No matter where you are I am linked to you I know your sorrows and pains Like they are my own Please don't cry .... -------------------------------------------------- Ache -- by Roberta Albinda Here i stand totally amazed i danced through life in a daze and now i suddenly am surprised to find you've plucked the wings from my mind Are you asking me to hate you is everything you said plain and true flames engulf my soul as i die you've made my life a lie What were those sweet things you said they still ring like a bell in my head didn't you say that things wouldn't change funny how things have all been rearranged. So now i ache from head to toe how i ache you'll never know i'll never erase the pain of your wrong you've hurt me for too long Isn't it funny i keep on smiling you wouldn't think i'm really lying but didn't you so many times lie to me? i've locked away my heart so no one can see Killing of the day. my heart has passed away i guess the facts remain sometimes things change. --------------------------------------------- # # # All Poems in this section are: Copyright 1994 Roberta Albinda ------------------------------------------------------------------------- Born in San Diego, Roberta's love for writing started as a small child along with other creative interests. She also enjoys singing, and art, and would like to record a song one day. Preferably, one that she wrote. Roberta has been married for nine years, and has four, small children. She came to Arizona in 1983 to start a new adventure, and has been enjoying the story as it has unfolded. ==========================================================================